RIOTTEDCATASTROPHE!

1. I’m screwing up my own life.
2. I know your gonna hate me for being so fucking gl.
3. I don’t know why I’m doing this cause I know it’ll hurt you. &I don’t want to. But maybe this once I want you to know.
4. Lying, being this heartless and acting like I don’t give a damn is so hard. Funny how doing it to me comes so naturally to you.
5. To you I must be picking a fight over nothing. Maybe it’s just all this built up shit.
6. I don’t know by doing this what I wish to get out of it anymore.
8. Maybe its just karma baby.
9. Sorry. :(
10. Want something that’s not right.
11. Knows there will be many times later on I regret not giving in
12. Introverting myself. &Yet still needs someone.
13. Believes no one will be there for cause I’ve chased everyone away.
14. Trying to numb myself.
15. Trying to drown myself in studies and yet I can’t concentrate. &For now might just be wishing EOYs will never end so I won’t free have time to think.
16. Heart never felt so heavy.
17. Need to get my happy back asap.
18. Something’s wrong with me. I hate myself.
19. Dreading school.
20. Thinks some people reading this are happy to know my life is far from perfect.
21. Someone please care tyvm.

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Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute it's love and suddenly
It's like a battle-field
One word turns into a war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you don't
I'm not here without a shield
Can't go back now

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing
Oh no
These times when we climb so fast to fall again
Why we gotta fall for it now

I never meant to start a war
You know I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for

Why does love always feel like a battlefield?